“Love Me Whole” by Nicky James


Twenty-eight-year-old Oryn Patterson isn’t like other people. Being an extremely shy, social introvert is only part of the problem. Oryn has dissociative identity disorder. He may look like a normal man on the outside, but spend five minutes with him, and his daily struggles begin to show.

Oryn shares his life and headspace with five distinctively different alters. Reed, a protective, very straight jock. Cohen, a flamboyantly gay nineteen-year-old who is a social butterfly. Cove, a self-destructive terror, whose past haunts him. Theo, an asexual man of little emotion, whose focus is on maintaining order. And Rain, a five-year-old child whose only concern is Batman.

Vaughn Sinclair is stuck in a rut. When his job doesn’t offer the same thrill it once did, he decides it’s time to mix-up his stagnant, boring routine. Little does he know, the man he meets during an impromptu decision to return to college is anything but ordinary.

Vaughn’s heart defies logic, and he finds himself falling in love with this strange new man. But how can you love someone who isn’t always themself? It may not be easy, but Vaughn is determined to try.


If you’re looking for a stellar example of soulmates, this might be the most precise portrayal I’ve ever seen. I’ve witnessed countless beautiful pairs that fit together seamlessly. However, I truly believe Vaughn was meant to love Oryn. There could be no one else. The call was for his soul and his soul alone. When things began to fall into place and these ultimate soulmates became clear, I lost my breath. I literally paused and took in the intensity of the moment. And it wasn’t the last time I stopped to grapple with the tsunami of feelings.  I’ll admit that it took me a bit before I fell into step with this story. It was not an easy read. It was not a light read. It was…unlike anything I’ve ever read before. As this was my first time with this author, it took me a few chapters to click with the writing. However, the story snagged me from the beginning and I was a slave to the pages.


I’m struggling to find the right words…it’s challenging to write a review for such a complex story. First off, I’m grateful that I didn’t read any reviews prior to reading because I believe my experience was much more profound without knowing too much. I’m also very thankful this came across my radar with the help of a buddy read. I’m not certain I would have read it otherwise. So, how do *I* compose a review without risking any spoilers or modifying your potential reading experience? How do I ensure you will behold the same beauty that I did? The only conclusion I can find is…with extreme ambiguity and soft descriptions. With recounting my feelings rather than their’s. Basically, by emotional babbling.
Here goes…this disorder isn’t something that I am familiar with. Yes, I’ve seen the movies but that is the extent of my knowledge. I felt inspired like Vaughn was to…know more. Yet as much as I was fascinated by the intricacy of Oryn’s life it was the tentative steps of their relationship that held me captive. Love is such a beautiful thing and why I am drawn to romance stories. The power that love wields can blow me away. And Vaughn and Oryn are a perfect example of pure, powerful, and unconditional love.


loveI could say that Vaughn is amazing but so is Oryn. I could express my admiration for his patience but again, it goes two-fold. One of the many things that I found remarkable was the open mind, open arms, and open heart that we witness. It’s not clear what traumatic events led Oryn to his fractured mind but…that’s okay. History is simply that. What is important is the here and now. And eventually, the promise of a future.
My quick rundown on the alters within Oryn would be:
Theo- practical, sturdy & constant.
Reed- watchdog, defender, & resolute.
Cove- haunted, stormy & survivor.
Cohen- free, joyous & playful.
Rain- spontaneous, refreshing & innocent.
These pieces come together and form an extraordinary man. But there is no separating, they come as a package deal. And no one has ever loved them before. There are many first’s within these pages but this was by far the most amazing. I loved how Vaughn loved them. I loved how they loved Vaughn. And the ending brought happy tears to my eyes.



Dissociative identity disorder is complicated. Oryn’s daily battles are exhausting and almost inconceivable. And their love is cautious yet all-consuming.

Special shout out for the cover, it is absolute perfection!


bookisforAnyone willing to take a chance…Love Me Whole is one of the most tremendous love stories that I’ve ever read and you may very well feel the same. What are you waiting for?



TITLE: Love Me Whole
AUTHOR: Nicky James
PUBLISHER: self-pub
LENGTH: 378 pages
RELEASE DATE: January 13, 2018

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